Ok so again I am going off topic today...I need an outlet for what just happened and this is the perfect place to do it.
I go out a lot. I can be responsible and irresponsible. Since one of my friend's lost his license I have been a bit more behaved, since I offer to drive him. He lives about 20-30 minutes away from me, so it's a bit of me going out of my way....But I like hanging out with my friends.
As we all know I have been hurriedly trying to get back to the normalcy I once knew. Burning the candle at both ends shall we say. But not in the partying aspect, just everything in general. Well it finally all caught up to me in one giant screeching halt....
I was being the good friend, I was the designated driver tonight so i picked up my friend. I had also been running all day since about 430am. We went to the normal watering hole, I behaved...I knew that I had to drive and that I was already exhausted. We left, I dropped him off, I start back home. I was tired...physically exhausted. I was drowsy at the wheel...bad combination. I was at most 5 minutes from my house at the town line and I dozed off for all of 5 seconds. That's all I needed....I woke up the car listed heavily to the left, I think I was on an embankment of some sort. I plowed into a telephone pole that snapped into god knows how many pieces. That's all I remember about the accident. I think I hit my head on the steering wheel. I "came to" and I was disoriented. I didn't know what way was up. I heard a bzzzzzzzzt and saw sparks, a downed power line, entirely too close to the car. I yelled for help, it was 1230am nobody was going to hear me. It's a futile effort. I undid my seat belt and fell out of the seat, the car was upside down. I needed to find a way out, fast. Who knows what was leaking. I some how managed to shimmy out of the sunroof, back on the grass, pulling on the passenger door frame. I got out...holy hell I got out.
The rest of the night was an emotional blur. I don't know if I have ever cried that much just out of sheer terror and gratefulness. I was shaking worse than someone with Parkinson's...still am. I was taken to the hospital, questioned by the police, the whole 9 yards. I have never been in a car accident before, and everybody who saw the car could not believe that I was standing, talking, functioning. Even the people in the hospital anticipated a horrific trauma victim, not someone who was wide awake without a single broken bone. I escaped with a sprained wrist, bruises from the force against the seat belt, cut on my forehead, and giant egg on my forehead.
I was a cynical person, skeptical about god....a higher being....miracles....any of that. Well someone was watching over me tonight. It wasn't my time. Someone took care of me...and I can only say, thank you. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for allowing me to live to see another day.
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Drunk N' Bake
tired....buzzed...and I made a fierce apple pie
bitchin...
I am so domesticated!
good night
bitchin...
I am so domesticated!
good night
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Learning Curve
Someone needs to make one for this whole eating thing. I know I have said it just about every single day and I will continue saying it....this is frustrating. Very frustrating.
So I can chew, sort of. I think because I have a few rogue teeth that need to be moved, it still feels weird. I want to be able to eat like a normal person. I want to not have to think about it when I go to take a bite...Will it fit? Can I chew this? Did I cut it small enough? This has resulted in me just either not eating, or only eating when I am home for the sole fear I will look like a slob.
I have gotten a bit sensitive about my post-wires recovery. I think its warranted. The wired shut phase was difficult, and incredibly lonely at times. Now that I can talk again, all these people are coming out of the woodwork. Like where were you 3 weeks ago? I can't stand fake people, or people who just show up when it benefits them. Coulda, woulda, shoulda....but you didn't and that's all that matters.
My cat is going to miss me terribly. I've been home and cuddly for the last 6 weeks. She will be sad. As will I...I mean I am up early regardless of work or not, but to actually have to DO something with myself...unheard of. Thankfully it's a holiday week so it will be a skeleton crew in house. Less drive by's at the desk which allows me to get settled in a bit better.
Another appointment with the surgeon on Monday. I think this is just making sure stuff is still in place, no pain, etc. I check the mirror repeatedly, doc, I am good. Lets take the pins out.
Anyways, have a great Sunday and I'll catch ya later
So I can chew, sort of. I think because I have a few rogue teeth that need to be moved, it still feels weird. I want to be able to eat like a normal person. I want to not have to think about it when I go to take a bite...Will it fit? Can I chew this? Did I cut it small enough? This has resulted in me just either not eating, or only eating when I am home for the sole fear I will look like a slob.
I have gotten a bit sensitive about my post-wires recovery. I think its warranted. The wired shut phase was difficult, and incredibly lonely at times. Now that I can talk again, all these people are coming out of the woodwork. Like where were you 3 weeks ago? I can't stand fake people, or people who just show up when it benefits them. Coulda, woulda, shoulda....but you didn't and that's all that matters.
My cat is going to miss me terribly. I've been home and cuddly for the last 6 weeks. She will be sad. As will I...I mean I am up early regardless of work or not, but to actually have to DO something with myself...unheard of. Thankfully it's a holiday week so it will be a skeleton crew in house. Less drive by's at the desk which allows me to get settled in a bit better.
Another appointment with the surgeon on Monday. I think this is just making sure stuff is still in place, no pain, etc. I check the mirror repeatedly, doc, I am good. Lets take the pins out.
Anyways, have a great Sunday and I'll catch ya later
Friday, November 21, 2008
Excuse Me While I Kiss This Guy....
I had to....I cannot take credit for it, but I had to do it. That line always makes me laugh....
Anyways enough with the lyrical shenanigans. You don't come here for that. You come for the excitement of my life!! hahahahahaha. Soooo where did I leave off?? Oh yes...I have an almost daily appointment with the surgeon to check up on me. I seem to be healing well. I was there on Wednesday and he said that "we were just going to let it all settle where it is". Good, bad? I don't know. I am pretty happy with it. Although it seems as though my bite changes daily, I am hoping this settling thing will occur soon. I am still rubber band free (woot! woot!) and it is fabulous.
Eating is still a challenge. I am certain this will be a challenge for a long time to come. I don't think people understand exactly why I am unable to eat normally right when they unwire me. This is what I have been saying. You bust your knee playing tennis, they keep you in a knee brace/immobilize the knee for 6-8 weeks. At the conclusion of the 6-8 weeks does the Dr. tell you go to play tennis on day 1? Nooooo....for 2 reasons, 1 because it would not be good for the knee, and 2 you wouldn't be able to anyways cause you don't have a full range of motion in it. The muscles in your face are no different. I have to retrain them how to work again. I can't just open my mouth and shove a sandwich in there.
I'd have to say though the 2 things that have bothered me the most from exposing the new face to the real world are reactions I have gotten from people. One of them I have heard a lot, some people have even asked me it more than once, and it is "Oh welcome back...when do you get your braces off?" Really? That's all you have to say? Honestly, that's the least of my worries at the moment. So I hate to sound like a bitch, but I don't know, and frankly there are more important things I need to worry about before they do that. There. I said it. I do not need the back handed compliment....
The second thing was, I think, even worse than that...."Oh but I don't notice anything..." Well that was supposed to be the point, sort of. I wasn't going all Joan Rivers on you, but come on....you don't notice the 25lb weight loss? Or the fact that my face isn't grotesquely crooked anymore? Ok ok ok whatever. Maybe I am being nit-picky. I just expected more people to just say "You look great!" without questioning future things, or just kind of tossing it aside. Can't a girl just get a plain old compliment????
Anyways, that's my venting for the day. Maybe I can try and eat some more stuff today. Bust out the sweet bib and the mirror!
Anyways enough with the lyrical shenanigans. You don't come here for that. You come for the excitement of my life!! hahahahahaha. Soooo where did I leave off?? Oh yes...I have an almost daily appointment with the surgeon to check up on me. I seem to be healing well. I was there on Wednesday and he said that "we were just going to let it all settle where it is". Good, bad? I don't know. I am pretty happy with it. Although it seems as though my bite changes daily, I am hoping this settling thing will occur soon. I am still rubber band free (woot! woot!) and it is fabulous.
Eating is still a challenge. I am certain this will be a challenge for a long time to come. I don't think people understand exactly why I am unable to eat normally right when they unwire me. This is what I have been saying. You bust your knee playing tennis, they keep you in a knee brace/immobilize the knee for 6-8 weeks. At the conclusion of the 6-8 weeks does the Dr. tell you go to play tennis on day 1? Nooooo....for 2 reasons, 1 because it would not be good for the knee, and 2 you wouldn't be able to anyways cause you don't have a full range of motion in it. The muscles in your face are no different. I have to retrain them how to work again. I can't just open my mouth and shove a sandwich in there.
I'd have to say though the 2 things that have bothered me the most from exposing the new face to the real world are reactions I have gotten from people. One of them I have heard a lot, some people have even asked me it more than once, and it is "Oh welcome back...when do you get your braces off?" Really? That's all you have to say? Honestly, that's the least of my worries at the moment. So I hate to sound like a bitch, but I don't know, and frankly there are more important things I need to worry about before they do that. There. I said it. I do not need the back handed compliment....
The second thing was, I think, even worse than that...."Oh but I don't notice anything..." Well that was supposed to be the point, sort of. I wasn't going all Joan Rivers on you, but come on....you don't notice the 25lb weight loss? Or the fact that my face isn't grotesquely crooked anymore? Ok ok ok whatever. Maybe I am being nit-picky. I just expected more people to just say "You look great!" without questioning future things, or just kind of tossing it aside. Can't a girl just get a plain old compliment????
Anyways, that's my venting for the day. Maybe I can try and eat some more stuff today. Bust out the sweet bib and the mirror!
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Weird...Very Weird
So I went to the surgeon yesterday. I explained to him my dilemma about the progressive crookedness of my bite which I thought was due to the rubber bands. He suggested we take the bands out and see how my bite is. Voila! It lined up!! I wasn't crazy!! He asked me if it was a progressive move, or if it was instantaneous. I said it was fine on Thursday and Friday. He told me the reason he put the bands in as he did was cause the muscles in my face were not lined up, so he was concerned it was going to try and pull it back to the asymmetry I had before. It worked, but they were now over-correcting. So lets try without any bands for a few days and see how you are. Okie! I made a nervous joke about how I thought I would need to be rewired, he said well we're not out of THOSE woods just yet.....Craptastic.
And here I am. I have an appointment tomorrow @ 10am with him to see what the deal is. If I can start with some at-home mouth PT and schedule an appointment with the orthodontist, who I miss dearly. I want to get rid of the damn hooks. STAT!!
I have successfully eaten mashed potatoes and various macaroni's. Its usually a messy task, since I really don't know what the feeling in my jaw looks like, so I require mirrors to watch and some sort of bib/cloth to catch the rogue pieces of food. You can laugh, its funny.
Other than that life is dull. I started work yesterday, it's as uneventful as I left it. Everyone freaking out about job security. Honey, its not just you....Its everyone in this silly country. Just keep your head down and do your job, we'll get through it. If its not meant to be a career path here, then it just will be someplace else. Meh*. I don't worry too much about it. Life goes on. I need to learn how to use my face first.
I'll let you all know how my appointment goes tomorrow. Keep your fingers crossed that I stay wire/band/erroneous appliance free!!!
* I can use that word now spell check!! It's been added to the official dictionary!! Eat it!! :-P
And here I am. I have an appointment tomorrow @ 10am with him to see what the deal is. If I can start with some at-home mouth PT and schedule an appointment with the orthodontist, who I miss dearly. I want to get rid of the damn hooks. STAT!!
I have successfully eaten mashed potatoes and various macaroni's. Its usually a messy task, since I really don't know what the feeling in my jaw looks like, so I require mirrors to watch and some sort of bib/cloth to catch the rogue pieces of food. You can laugh, its funny.
Other than that life is dull. I started work yesterday, it's as uneventful as I left it. Everyone freaking out about job security. Honey, its not just you....Its everyone in this silly country. Just keep your head down and do your job, we'll get through it. If its not meant to be a career path here, then it just will be someplace else. Meh*. I don't worry too much about it. Life goes on. I need to learn how to use my face first.
I'll let you all know how my appointment goes tomorrow. Keep your fingers crossed that I stay wire/band/erroneous appliance free!!!
* I can use that word now spell check!! It's been added to the official dictionary!! Eat it!! :-P
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Please Pardon Our Appearance
Ok so some successes and minor challenges facing the unwiring. I'll start with the good stuff...
~ The ability to use my tongue to break down crackers is invaluable.
~ I've learned how to eat without the need of a mirror.
~ Macaroni is good.
~ An increased amount of energy, most likely due to the small increase in calorie intake.
~ I sleep a LOT better now.
Some challenges...
~ The rubber bands are working against the symmetry in my mouth, I think...
~ The Hooks of Death have torn my mouth up into something fierce. I can show you.
~ I have a fat lip. I look like I got punched in the face.
~ Eating is a very very very messy task, I cannot go out in public to eat.
~ I drool like an infant. I need a bib/drool guard.
Overall the few days I have spent dewired were sadly uneventful. Simply because I really can't talk since my mouth is beaten to hell. Once that heals, speaking will be a little clearer and easier. As will eating. One day at a time. I just pray that I don't need to be rewired on monday. PLEASE PLEASE. NO MORE WIRES.
~ The ability to use my tongue to break down crackers is invaluable.
~ I've learned how to eat without the need of a mirror.
~ Macaroni is good.
~ An increased amount of energy, most likely due to the small increase in calorie intake.
~ I sleep a LOT better now.
Some challenges...
~ The rubber bands are working against the symmetry in my mouth, I think...
~ The Hooks of Death have torn my mouth up into something fierce. I can show you.
~ I have a fat lip. I look like I got punched in the face.
~ Eating is a very very very messy task, I cannot go out in public to eat.
~ I drool like an infant. I need a bib/drool guard.
Overall the few days I have spent dewired were sadly uneventful. Simply because I really can't talk since my mouth is beaten to hell. Once that heals, speaking will be a little clearer and easier. As will eating. One day at a time. I just pray that I don't need to be rewired on monday. PLEASE PLEASE. NO MORE WIRES.
Friday, November 14, 2008
ugh...
I feel these elastics are working against me. I feel its MAKING my bite shift as opposed to keeping it. But my teeth match up in the back, so I don't get it. Why do my teeth match up in the back, but not in the front? If they take the rubber bands out, does it line up? Or does it stay? I don't get it...
I feel like an infant. I think this part is way harder than being wired shut. This is like a taunt. I can sorta open my mouth, but it just barely doesn't open enough to fit key foods in there. And I don't know how to chew anymore. I have to eat with a mirror, so I can remember the feeling I have when I open and close my mouth. God forbid I venture out and I don't have a mirror with me, I need to remember this crapola. Plus I think the difference between me and a lot of others who get this, don't have the assymmetry. They just have an over/under bite. My muscles were all messed up and now I have to trick them to working with me, and no longer against me.
I wish my face would fix itself. Like I could wake up and *poof*
I feel like an infant. I think this part is way harder than being wired shut. This is like a taunt. I can sorta open my mouth, but it just barely doesn't open enough to fit key foods in there. And I don't know how to chew anymore. I have to eat with a mirror, so I can remember the feeling I have when I open and close my mouth. God forbid I venture out and I don't have a mirror with me, I need to remember this crapola. Plus I think the difference between me and a lot of others who get this, don't have the assymmetry. They just have an over/under bite. My muscles were all messed up and now I have to trick them to working with me, and no longer against me.
I wish my face would fix itself. Like I could wake up and *poof*
Thursday, November 13, 2008
The Sweet Taste of Freedom
I am freed!! Well sort of...I got a crazy kaliedoscope of rubber bands on the side of my mouth, but yeah it works.
I have one word to describe this, weird. I don't know how to use my mouth. I don't know what to do with it. How do I open it? How do my muscles work? Do they know where my bite is or do I have to train it? How do I eat? I feel I need to carry a mirror with me everywhere I go, so that when I open and close I see how it works and make sure I stay straight. This is so weird.
I did however manage to cram a mini saltine in there. Boy, I never thought I would love a cracker as much as I do right now. It was so delightful. The taste of freedom comes in the form of solid food.....
Ok so, the surgeon was on the fence. I am for the most part healed. But there still is an iiiiiiiiitty bitty bit left to do. So he wants to see me on monday to make sure my bite hasn't shifted. God forbid if it does, its another week or 2 wired shut to put it back in its place like the rotten child it is. Back to the corner you go!! Don't make me get the belt!!! Otherwise I am clean sailing once everything is all patched up.
So keep your fingers crossed!! Let's not go back to wires!! I think if I had to, that would be the second time in this process I have cried.
I am going to save my de-wiring lessons learned for AFTER my monday appointment. I don't want to go jinxing this by jumping the gun. Hopefully this weekend goes smoothly and I don't have any issues. Like I said keep your fingers crossed. Back to the mirror I go to practice....
I have one word to describe this, weird. I don't know how to use my mouth. I don't know what to do with it. How do I open it? How do my muscles work? Do they know where my bite is or do I have to train it? How do I eat? I feel I need to carry a mirror with me everywhere I go, so that when I open and close I see how it works and make sure I stay straight. This is so weird.
I did however manage to cram a mini saltine in there. Boy, I never thought I would love a cracker as much as I do right now. It was so delightful. The taste of freedom comes in the form of solid food.....
Ok so, the surgeon was on the fence. I am for the most part healed. But there still is an iiiiiiiiitty bitty bit left to do. So he wants to see me on monday to make sure my bite hasn't shifted. God forbid if it does, its another week or 2 wired shut to put it back in its place like the rotten child it is. Back to the corner you go!! Don't make me get the belt!!! Otherwise I am clean sailing once everything is all patched up.
So keep your fingers crossed!! Let's not go back to wires!! I think if I had to, that would be the second time in this process I have cried.
I am going to save my de-wiring lessons learned for AFTER my monday appointment. I don't want to go jinxing this by jumping the gun. Hopefully this weekend goes smoothly and I don't have any issues. Like I said keep your fingers crossed. Back to the mirror I go to practice....
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Week 5
Wow...Week 5 is over already. I went back yesterday and looked and the posts earlier in this wired shut ordeal. Some of them are quite comical. If only you all knew what time I actually wrote some of them. I suppose I can be a funny person when I don't have a whole lot of sleep.
So here we are. This is pretty much the end. I get de-wired in 2 days. There have been a lot of ups and downs in this whole process. Thankfully I didn't have anyone doting over me, or there may have been more bad days than good days. However I will save the de-wiring lengthy reflections for Thursday.
Time for some Week 5 Lessons Learned:
~ Its too early for Christmas. That includes all things Christmas-related. Sorry Karen, no Carpenters Christmas album yet.
~ I miss being able to lick my lips. I feel like I molt daily.
~ Daytime TV is awful. No matter how many paternity tests, transgender wedding fights, and cooking shows you watch...the quality has not improved.
~ If you are ever in the southern NH region hunkering for a McDonalds clayshake, go to the McDonalds on Second Street in Manchester. I have sampled most of the McDonalds in the area and they by far have the best recipe.
~ I fall down a lot more when I am weak. I have a thing with falling up stairs, not down. I have the rug burns on my elbows and bruises on my knees to prove it.
~ The movie The Fly, yes the one with Jeff Goldblum, is very disturbing
~ I love/hate IHOP. This fluctuates daily, maybe even hourly.
~ I am now a master of milkshakes. If you ever need a recipe, ask.
~ I love Netflix. I know I have said this every week but they have some delightfully HORRIBLE movies available that I now do not have to be ashamed to buy.
~ Speaking of ashamed....I love the new rendition of Knight Rider
~ I love brushing my teeth. I don't eat much, nor really drink a whole lot, but it just really feels good to keep my teeth clean.
I purchased some Cheerios and Mini Saltines last weekend. I proudly have them displayed on my counter. I cannot wait for thursday so I can crack those babies open. Even if I don't eat a lot, or that I can't really chew them. It's still real food and it isn't soup. Hooray!!
I don't really have much to say this week. All has been quiet for the most part. I really need to thank my friends in this. I really found out who is my friend throughout this ordeal and I cannot express my gratitude for your caring words and just friendship through this. It wasn't easy, but with your help I was able to do it.
Okie that is all for today. I meet with the surgeon on Thursday @ 8am for the de-wiring and the passing of the torch (i.e. returning the wire cutters back to the surgeon). Pray that I don't need further adjustments and need to be re-beartrapped. Talk to you soon!!
So here we are. This is pretty much the end. I get de-wired in 2 days. There have been a lot of ups and downs in this whole process. Thankfully I didn't have anyone doting over me, or there may have been more bad days than good days. However I will save the de-wiring lengthy reflections for Thursday.
Time for some Week 5 Lessons Learned:
~ Its too early for Christmas. That includes all things Christmas-related. Sorry Karen, no Carpenters Christmas album yet.
~ I miss being able to lick my lips. I feel like I molt daily.
~ Daytime TV is awful. No matter how many paternity tests, transgender wedding fights, and cooking shows you watch...the quality has not improved.
~ If you are ever in the southern NH region hunkering for a McDonalds clayshake, go to the McDonalds on Second Street in Manchester. I have sampled most of the McDonalds in the area and they by far have the best recipe.
~ I fall down a lot more when I am weak. I have a thing with falling up stairs, not down. I have the rug burns on my elbows and bruises on my knees to prove it.
~ The movie The Fly, yes the one with Jeff Goldblum, is very disturbing
~ I love/hate IHOP. This fluctuates daily, maybe even hourly.
~ I am now a master of milkshakes. If you ever need a recipe, ask.
~ I love Netflix. I know I have said this every week but they have some delightfully HORRIBLE movies available that I now do not have to be ashamed to buy.
~ Speaking of ashamed....I love the new rendition of Knight Rider
~ I love brushing my teeth. I don't eat much, nor really drink a whole lot, but it just really feels good to keep my teeth clean.
I purchased some Cheerios and Mini Saltines last weekend. I proudly have them displayed on my counter. I cannot wait for thursday so I can crack those babies open. Even if I don't eat a lot, or that I can't really chew them. It's still real food and it isn't soup. Hooray!!
I don't really have much to say this week. All has been quiet for the most part. I really need to thank my friends in this. I really found out who is my friend throughout this ordeal and I cannot express my gratitude for your caring words and just friendship through this. It wasn't easy, but with your help I was able to do it.
Okie that is all for today. I meet with the surgeon on Thursday @ 8am for the de-wiring and the passing of the torch (i.e. returning the wire cutters back to the surgeon). Pray that I don't need further adjustments and need to be re-beartrapped. Talk to you soon!!
Monday, November 10, 2008
End Game
It is fast approaching. Only 3 days left. Almost to the exact minute.
I cannot believe it is almost over. Like finally. I am looking forward to eating moderately solid food, even if it is mush.
I have learned a lot about myself during this. About willpower and strength. About the peacefulness of being absolutely alone. About how bad daytime TV is.
Thanks again for all your support. I will have my Week 5 updates tomorrow :-)
I cannot believe it is almost over. Like finally. I am looking forward to eating moderately solid food, even if it is mush.
I have learned a lot about myself during this. About willpower and strength. About the peacefulness of being absolutely alone. About how bad daytime TV is.
Thanks again for all your support. I will have my Week 5 updates tomorrow :-)
Friday, November 7, 2008
I Love Fall
I love fall. I love the leaves, I love Sam Adams' Octoberfest, I love the warm comfort food, I love football, I love Macintosh apples, I love pumpkin pie, I love digging out my nice coats and boots, I love the smell of cinnamon, and who doesn't love apple pie.
Alas, I have missed out on my favorite season this year. I do still have my football, but the Patriots aren't the same, and well I am currently unable to eat foods. I have been taunting myself with my fall Yankee Candles: Apple crisp, pumpkin pie, and home for the holidays. If you didn't know me, you'd swear I was actually cooking something!! It smells wonderful.
*sigh* there is always next year...
Side note, I don't know how much TV everyone watches, but look out for an IHOP commercial about coffee cake pancakes. Seriously if you think they looked good in the ad, DO NOT go to to the website. They have a variation with APPLES!!! mmmmmmm I know what my first meal is going to be....
*walks over to the blender and dumps a can of soup into the blender*
Next year....next year
Alas, I have missed out on my favorite season this year. I do still have my football, but the Patriots aren't the same, and well I am currently unable to eat foods. I have been taunting myself with my fall Yankee Candles: Apple crisp, pumpkin pie, and home for the holidays. If you didn't know me, you'd swear I was actually cooking something!! It smells wonderful.
*sigh* there is always next year...
Side note, I don't know how much TV everyone watches, but look out for an IHOP commercial about coffee cake pancakes. Seriously if you think they looked good in the ad, DO NOT go to to the website. They have a variation with APPLES!!! mmmmmmm I know what my first meal is going to be....
*walks over to the blender and dumps a can of soup into the blender*
Next year....next year
Thursday, November 6, 2008
Hangover
I am done talking about the election. My post yesterday has been met with down right anger from all sorts of people. I did not mean to offend. That being said please do not offend me by calling me spineless, lazy, free-loading, or a Marxist. I am none of these things and I find that offensive. Stop the pessimism.
Anyways, enough of that. It actually made me mad. I wanted to excitedly tell you that I officially have 1 week left being wired shut. 1 week!! WOOT WOOT!! I think I am going to make a grocery list today I am so excited. I am purposely going to leave soup off of it. God no more soup. PLEASE. Some things to include on my list:
~ Saltines
~ Cheerios
~ Apple jacks
~ Pasta
~ Weight Watcher meals - stuff with chicken. I need the protein
~ Diet coke
SOLID FOOD!! SOLID FOOD!! Yell out from the hills!! HOORAY! HOORAY!
Man, next week is going to be an eternity. I am going to try to be optimistic and wish it away like I have all the other weeks.
Anyways, enough of that. It actually made me mad. I wanted to excitedly tell you that I officially have 1 week left being wired shut. 1 week!! WOOT WOOT!! I think I am going to make a grocery list today I am so excited. I am purposely going to leave soup off of it. God no more soup. PLEASE. Some things to include on my list:
~ Saltines
~ Cheerios
~ Apple jacks
~ Pasta
~ Weight Watcher meals - stuff with chicken. I need the protein
~ Diet coke
SOLID FOOD!! SOLID FOOD!! Yell out from the hills!! HOORAY! HOORAY!
Man, next week is going to be an eternity. I am going to try to be optimistic and wish it away like I have all the other weeks.
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
I Am Me
Ok so this is where I go off topic for a post. I want to talk about the election.....
I voted. I voted for change. I voted for peace. I voted for a hopefully improved economy. I voted to end the nonsense about being the world police. I voted for Senator Barack Obama.
Now I have met a LOT of people who will argue with me, tooth and nail, that he is not about change, he is about big government, he has no experience, he doesn't support our troops, even about his name and religion...
Well what I have been saying all along to the super conservatives, you had 8 years. You had who was supposed to be a star pupil. Son of a former president. Where are we now? Now don't get me wrong, under any other circumstances, I have backed John McCain. Actually the 2004 primaries I voted for John McCain. He is a respectable man with good ideas and values. But I cannot vote for another conservative right now. I just cannot. 8 years have been spent...the time for change is now.
That being said, I feel I am a pretty open minded person. I look at all the issues, and see both sides. I love talking politics with educated people because I don't fight or speak irrationally. I like to see if they are seeing something I do not. Maybe even convince me to switch sides. What really upset me about this election, were people who did not actually research issues and look at both sides. Who voted for someone just because of negative ads on TV or because they are partisans. Who are jumping to conclusions about bomb shelters, and removing the 2nd amendment, another 9/11, or even becoming a Communist country. I have heard it all.
In an election that was supposed to unify this country, I have never felt such anger towards my fellow citizens. How can people be so naive? So uneducated? To make comments as irrational as that...It's painful to hear and see. Some of it, is even borderline discrimination. Now I could fly off onto the other end of the spectrum, and say what crazy thing's would have happened, or not happened, if Senator McCain became president, but that's not who I am. That's not why I voted for Barack Obama. I feel this man can actually fix this mess. Not just internally, but foreign policy too. Obviously we have issues at home here with housing and the sinking job market and economy, but look beyond this, the world issues. We've single handedly ruined global economies, we have tarnished our image with other countries who used to be our allies. We need change.
I am not a liberal. I am not a moderate. I am not a conservative. I am me....and I am proud to say I voted for Barack Obama.
***This was not to sway anyone or try to change anyone's views. I respect everyone's rights and opinions, as long as they are educated :-) ***
I voted. I voted for change. I voted for peace. I voted for a hopefully improved economy. I voted to end the nonsense about being the world police. I voted for Senator Barack Obama.
Now I have met a LOT of people who will argue with me, tooth and nail, that he is not about change, he is about big government, he has no experience, he doesn't support our troops, even about his name and religion...
Well what I have been saying all along to the super conservatives, you had 8 years. You had who was supposed to be a star pupil. Son of a former president. Where are we now? Now don't get me wrong, under any other circumstances, I have backed John McCain. Actually the 2004 primaries I voted for John McCain. He is a respectable man with good ideas and values. But I cannot vote for another conservative right now. I just cannot. 8 years have been spent...the time for change is now.
That being said, I feel I am a pretty open minded person. I look at all the issues, and see both sides. I love talking politics with educated people because I don't fight or speak irrationally. I like to see if they are seeing something I do not. Maybe even convince me to switch sides. What really upset me about this election, were people who did not actually research issues and look at both sides. Who voted for someone just because of negative ads on TV or because they are partisans. Who are jumping to conclusions about bomb shelters, and removing the 2nd amendment, another 9/11, or even becoming a Communist country. I have heard it all.
In an election that was supposed to unify this country, I have never felt such anger towards my fellow citizens. How can people be so naive? So uneducated? To make comments as irrational as that...It's painful to hear and see. Some of it, is even borderline discrimination. Now I could fly off onto the other end of the spectrum, and say what crazy thing's would have happened, or not happened, if Senator McCain became president, but that's not who I am. That's not why I voted for Barack Obama. I feel this man can actually fix this mess. Not just internally, but foreign policy too. Obviously we have issues at home here with housing and the sinking job market and economy, but look beyond this, the world issues. We've single handedly ruined global economies, we have tarnished our image with other countries who used to be our allies. We need change.
I am not a liberal. I am not a moderate. I am not a conservative. I am me....and I am proud to say I voted for Barack Obama.
***This was not to sway anyone or try to change anyone's views. I respect everyone's rights and opinions, as long as they are educated :-) ***
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Week 4
Here we are again. The week's go by a liiiiiiiiiiiiiiittle bit faster now. Maybe it's because I am just wishing them away. Life is boring here at home. Boring and lonely. But hey, almost done right? weeeeeeee
Ok so here is some fun stuff I got out of week 4:
~ Chef Boyardee faux lasagna blends really well believe it or not
~ I can recite the entire JG Wentworth 877-CASHNOW operatic commercial
~ I am sick of soup. Although the Sirloin Burger and Veggies blends and tastes the best.
~ After all the Halloween morning shows were done last Friday, I saw my first Christmas ad on TV. Gross!!!
~ I have found appreciation in coloring....again
~ I wish I could get rid of my chipmunk cheeks! But I know the reason is because there is a ton of crap in my mouth.
~ I think I would sell my arms right now for a Townhouse cracker.
~ I have no idea what they are made out of (possibly some sort of clay), but McDonald's shakes are the best
~ Dunkin donuts is a rip off
As you can tell I have ventured out a bit more in the last week. I can pretty much coherently talk aside from a bit of muffling. So I am not too ashamed in going out. It's still a bit difficult to smile at times, so I think some people may think I am being rude, which I am not. But oh well.
If you didn't read yesterday's post, I am OFFICIALLY being cut out of the trap in my mouth next Thursday @ 8am, 11/13. HOORAY!! I am so excited I don't even know what to do, say. I get to go REAL grocery shopping this weekend and buy food that is SOLID, sorta!!! WOOOOO
That's really the biggest news I have. I cannot wait to be freed! One more week of soup and straws, and all things blended, I can do it. I've made it this far, there is no turning back now!!
Have a wonderful day everyone! I will upload some new weekly pictures this afternoon!
And don't forget to vote ;-)
Ok so here is some fun stuff I got out of week 4:
~ Chef Boyardee faux lasagna blends really well believe it or not
~ I can recite the entire JG Wentworth 877-CASHNOW operatic commercial
~ I am sick of soup. Although the Sirloin Burger and Veggies blends and tastes the best.
~ After all the Halloween morning shows were done last Friday, I saw my first Christmas ad on TV. Gross!!!
~ I have found appreciation in coloring....again
~ I wish I could get rid of my chipmunk cheeks! But I know the reason is because there is a ton of crap in my mouth.
~ I think I would sell my arms right now for a Townhouse cracker.
~ I have no idea what they are made out of (possibly some sort of clay), but McDonald's shakes are the best
~ Dunkin donuts is a rip off
As you can tell I have ventured out a bit more in the last week. I can pretty much coherently talk aside from a bit of muffling. So I am not too ashamed in going out. It's still a bit difficult to smile at times, so I think some people may think I am being rude, which I am not. But oh well.
If you didn't read yesterday's post, I am OFFICIALLY being cut out of the trap in my mouth next Thursday @ 8am, 11/13. HOORAY!! I am so excited I don't even know what to do, say. I get to go REAL grocery shopping this weekend and buy food that is SOLID, sorta!!! WOOOOO
That's really the biggest news I have. I cannot wait to be freed! One more week of soup and straws, and all things blended, I can do it. I've made it this far, there is no turning back now!!
Have a wonderful day everyone! I will upload some new weekly pictures this afternoon!
And don't forget to vote ;-)
Jumping on the Soap box...
Ok so before I go into my weekly updates I just ask one thing of my readers: Please...PLEASE...go out and vote today.
This is a very important election and will help shape the country, and hopefully fix it, for the next 4 years. I don't care who you vote for, McCain or Obama, thats a personal choice. But just make sure you make time to go vote.
I of course have an endless amount of free time so I will be making my way to the polling center around 830am.
It is our right as Americans to express who we wish to run this country, please use it.
VOTE!
This is a very important election and will help shape the country, and hopefully fix it, for the next 4 years. I don't care who you vote for, McCain or Obama, thats a personal choice. But just make sure you make time to go vote.
I of course have an endless amount of free time so I will be making my way to the polling center around 830am.
It is our right as Americans to express who we wish to run this country, please use it.
VOTE!
Monday, November 3, 2008
**APPLAUSE**
10 DAYS!!!! 10 FREAKIN DAYS!!
I am so excited that my stomach is growling. 10 DAYS!! *squee*
Ok so if you couldn't figure out, the surgeon said ok to cutting me out next Thursday! I have my appointment to free me at 8am on 11/13!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Downside is I may have to have rubber bands for an extra week, depending on how I have healed and if my bite starts to shift at all. Downside number 2, I will be able to open my mouth at MOST 1/2 an inch. Yeah thats about enough for a spoon or a piece of macaroni, or something chopped up into REALLY small bites. Whatever, I can SPEAK!! I can EAT!! I don't care what it is as long as it is solid!!!
10 DAYS!!
I am so excited that my stomach is growling. 10 DAYS!! *squee*
Ok so if you couldn't figure out, the surgeon said ok to cutting me out next Thursday! I have my appointment to free me at 8am on 11/13!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Downside is I may have to have rubber bands for an extra week, depending on how I have healed and if my bite starts to shift at all. Downside number 2, I will be able to open my mouth at MOST 1/2 an inch. Yeah thats about enough for a spoon or a piece of macaroni, or something chopped up into REALLY small bites. Whatever, I can SPEAK!! I can EAT!! I don't care what it is as long as it is solid!!!
10 DAYS!!
Questions. Questions. Questions.
So I am coming up on the home stretch here. 2 more weeks left of this nonsense. It seems like just yesterday I was at week 2, griping. No not really. I think this is the first time in my life where time did not fly by and it really did seem like the eternity that it was. And those damn IHOP coffee cake pancake commercials have been taunting me every single day. Damn you IHOP and your tasty breakfast!!
So I meet with the surgeon today and I have a few questions for him. But I think I need some sort of strategy in the way and order I ask them.
1 - What can I eat when you cut me out of this mess?
2 - Where exactly are there going to be rubber bands in my mouth?
3 - Can I pretty pretty please get cut out on November 13th?
I kinda sorta know the answer to the first one. It's going to be a trial and error on my part. I would assume small pieces of juicy meats (chicken, turkey), macaroni, breads...stuff like that. Basically anything I can cram in there. ha ha ha. I will have my wheat thin I have been dreaming about!!!
The second question is kind of a two parter. The reason I ask this question is so I can make an appointment with my orthodontist, and really determine what I can eat. Obviously if there are 823764 rubber bands all around my mouth, I'm still rocking the liquids, or I am going to cheat and take them out on occasion to eat something. However, if they are put on the sides, that allows for some play with foods. Also, if they are on the sides, I can get these horrid hooks taken out of my brackets on the front teeth. Just for an idea of how AWFUL these hooks are, the inside of my lower lip is SCARRED from the destruction they caused. SCARRED!! My orthodontist's office is like the mall at Christmas too, so the sooner I can call for an appointment the better. All erroneous metal will be taken out as soon as possible.
So that comes to question 3. I think I may lie, and say I am going away for the weekend and won't be back until Monday night. So if it is at all possible to remove these wires Thursday morning 11/13, it would be greatly appreciated. Also, I can then call my ortho and get an appointment for the same day to get the erroneous hooks out. I also, refuse to be wired shut any longer than necessary. If I am done on 11/18, you will cut me out by 11/18. If that is not possible, you will do it the day before, or whatever. I will not go beyond 11/18. There is no room for debate or discussion on that. I am sticking to my ground. I have a sinking feeling he will say no...but as my mom said, it doesn't hurt to ask right?
I am sick of soup. So sick of soup that I don't even want to look at it anymore. The cans of soup in my cupboard make me angry. Although I have overcome my overwhelming sense of hunger for the most part. Unless I am at a party, like I was this weekend, and they order 5 large pizza's and everyone is scarfing food in front of me. That's a bit of a taunt. I know they don't do it intentionally, and I don't want any special treatment, but man, that pizza looked goooooood.
Funny story, cause it has happened to me three times now. My poor cousin was asking me 826 questions about my mouth, face, how I felt, asked what I was doing, etc. I told her I was fine, just bored at home. I don't do too much since everyone is at work. She said "Oh I have some meetings in Merrimack on Wednesday, maybe I can pick you up and we can do lunch or something!" I kinda chuckled and said, "well if they can blend it I can eat it". She felt so bad. I told her no worries, she wasn't the only one who had done it. Its' funny how people take for granted just the basic functions, like eating food daily. Appreciate it. Please. I am hungry.
I would never say this experience has been fun, cause it most certainly has not. I've had my good days and bad days. More bad than good, but that's beside point. If anyone ever approached me about how I felt about this, and that they were unsure about doing it, I would tell them to do it. For the sole reason that the end result is fabulous. Granted I am not done yet, I still have at LEAST 6 months left in orthodontics, but right now, I have never loved my bite, and the symmetry of my face this much. I have never been able to take a head-on picture that I liked, now I can't stop looking. Its wonderful. Its everything I had hoped it would be....and it is only going to get better. If you're considering it, do it, take the jump...you won't regret it.
Have a wonderful day!
So I meet with the surgeon today and I have a few questions for him. But I think I need some sort of strategy in the way and order I ask them.
1 - What can I eat when you cut me out of this mess?
2 - Where exactly are there going to be rubber bands in my mouth?
3 - Can I pretty pretty please get cut out on November 13th?
I kinda sorta know the answer to the first one. It's going to be a trial and error on my part. I would assume small pieces of juicy meats (chicken, turkey), macaroni, breads...stuff like that. Basically anything I can cram in there. ha ha ha. I will have my wheat thin I have been dreaming about!!!
The second question is kind of a two parter. The reason I ask this question is so I can make an appointment with my orthodontist, and really determine what I can eat. Obviously if there are 823764 rubber bands all around my mouth, I'm still rocking the liquids, or I am going to cheat and take them out on occasion to eat something. However, if they are put on the sides, that allows for some play with foods. Also, if they are on the sides, I can get these horrid hooks taken out of my brackets on the front teeth. Just for an idea of how AWFUL these hooks are, the inside of my lower lip is SCARRED from the destruction they caused. SCARRED!! My orthodontist's office is like the mall at Christmas too, so the sooner I can call for an appointment the better. All erroneous metal will be taken out as soon as possible.
So that comes to question 3. I think I may lie, and say I am going away for the weekend and won't be back until Monday night. So if it is at all possible to remove these wires Thursday morning 11/13, it would be greatly appreciated. Also, I can then call my ortho and get an appointment for the same day to get the erroneous hooks out. I also, refuse to be wired shut any longer than necessary. If I am done on 11/18, you will cut me out by 11/18. If that is not possible, you will do it the day before, or whatever. I will not go beyond 11/18. There is no room for debate or discussion on that. I am sticking to my ground. I have a sinking feeling he will say no...but as my mom said, it doesn't hurt to ask right?
I am sick of soup. So sick of soup that I don't even want to look at it anymore. The cans of soup in my cupboard make me angry. Although I have overcome my overwhelming sense of hunger for the most part. Unless I am at a party, like I was this weekend, and they order 5 large pizza's and everyone is scarfing food in front of me. That's a bit of a taunt. I know they don't do it intentionally, and I don't want any special treatment, but man, that pizza looked goooooood.
Funny story, cause it has happened to me three times now. My poor cousin was asking me 826 questions about my mouth, face, how I felt, asked what I was doing, etc. I told her I was fine, just bored at home. I don't do too much since everyone is at work. She said "Oh I have some meetings in Merrimack on Wednesday, maybe I can pick you up and we can do lunch or something!" I kinda chuckled and said, "well if they can blend it I can eat it". She felt so bad. I told her no worries, she wasn't the only one who had done it. Its' funny how people take for granted just the basic functions, like eating food daily. Appreciate it. Please. I am hungry.
I would never say this experience has been fun, cause it most certainly has not. I've had my good days and bad days. More bad than good, but that's beside point. If anyone ever approached me about how I felt about this, and that they were unsure about doing it, I would tell them to do it. For the sole reason that the end result is fabulous. Granted I am not done yet, I still have at LEAST 6 months left in orthodontics, but right now, I have never loved my bite, and the symmetry of my face this much. I have never been able to take a head-on picture that I liked, now I can't stop looking. Its wonderful. Its everything I had hoped it would be....and it is only going to get better. If you're considering it, do it, take the jump...you won't regret it.
Have a wonderful day!
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