Defeat

I had to wait til today to post about the goings on of yesterday because...well...I was an utter mess.

If that doesn't pretty much tell you what I was told at the orthodontist, I don't know what will.

Anyway, here is the run down...I went to the orthodontist. I knew going into it I have 2 bites. As I have told you before we all have 2 bites, mine is just more severe than others. The surgeon has been quite ambiguous as to the repercussions of living with the double bite, but I will get to that later. I heard quite possibly the worst thing to ever hear...."I hate to give you bad news, but there is nothing more orthodontically I can do for you and your bite without another surgery." Wow....let that settle in...First mildly rational thought that comes to my head is can I live with what I have with no side effects? This I don't know. I call the orthodontist when I get to work and speak with her. She tells me that any of the following can happen :

- Absolutely nothing and I can go on my life with 2 bites
- Improper tooth wear which causes the bite to slip even further and worse.
- Jaw muscle/joint pain due to the stress of putting it in the proper spot.

But she can't tell me where I fall....no one can....Cause no can predict what will happen within the next 40 some odd years. What caused the sliding back of my rest bite? A multitude of things; possibly just the natural settling was wrong, perhaps my car accident...who knows....All we do know is that it is wrong. Why did it come out wrong? Well, I wasn't set in a rigid fixation (meaning screws put into my jaw to hold it in place). Why didn't the surgeon use screws? Well that, my dear readers, is the huuuuuuuuge variable with this surgery. There is no set way to perform this surgery. Some doctors only do rigid fixation...others feel that if the bone can heal on its own without metal, then that's the best way to go. The problem with no screws? Well exactly what you see here....

Ugh....I am not willing to take the risk to see if I never have any issues down the road...I have come too far....gone through too much....But now, I have just come to the realization that I went through 6 weeks of hell for absolutely nothing. Just to go through it again. Yes it is the SAME exact surgery. The only difference is he will be screwing it in place this time, I will insist upon it. the upside of that, is that I will only have my mouth wired shut for at most 4 days. Not too bad right? Onto a mushy diet right out of the gate....which is pretty much the diet I am still on now.

Game plan is this....I will call my friends at the Elliot tomorrow. Leave a message for the surgeon saying, I think it's best we go in and do it, and how soon can we get in to do it. The sooner they can get me in for it, the better. I don't want to wait another 2 months....we can expedite it, especially through an insurance company given the fact that its a mess up on their end and nothing that I could have controlled. Turn around time for stuff like that is usually pretty quick. (I went to the ENT and we determined I needed my tonsils out, 3 weeks later I was in there). No sense in letting the bone heal anyways when you are gonna break it again.

So yeah...that's the latest....looks like you have a whole other week or 2 coming worth of recovery. Sweet right?

Yeah I am gonna go back and cry into my wine....