Quarter to Never

That's about when I will get my braces off. I am not joking.

So the outcome of today's meeting was....hmm...a better understanding...So you know me. I had my mind set on something so I ran in there, guns blazing. Yeah I had no idea what I was talking about and that was pretty evident. So to dumb it down a bit...

We all know I have 2 bites. The "bad" bite lets say is a -4 (to mean 4mm back). Ok? They do not want to do surgery now because my joint area is still molding, to where it needs to be. And if they did go in now, and make my bite a 0 (which would be the perfect bite)....after everything is healed, I could conceivably end up at a +4 (4mm forward). Make sense? Basically it's like operating on a growing child. Things are still shifting and molding to where they need to be and need to settle. This is a process that can take up to a year from now to complete.

Ok that makes sense. Their other argument was this...which I also did not know. The surgery would not be the same exact surgery. It would be a different cut to move the jaw forward. Now if you remember correctly, the original surgery was to, in essence, rotate my bite since it was basically shifted to one side. Simple enough. Well a down set of that was possibly not lined up front to back. It's line up side to side alright, but not necessarily front to back. Get it? Different cut means more pieces. For obvious reasons, one would want the old pieces to be fused together before you go in and start cutting new pieces. In the words of my fellow frenchies....I cut it three times, still to short! (if you haven't heard me do my frenchie speak, ask me...)

*sigh*

My concerns are the following...my employment situation, and hand in hand with that, my health care situation....which sadly has nothing to do truly do with my oral situation. I am ok with waiting, it makes sense. I'd rather wait til I am healed, and assess. I have come this far, I refuse to settle for mediocre. However, given the cucky economy and the gradual moving of my department to a southwestern state, I am not sure if I will be employed in a year, have health coverage (any or the same) in a year, I don't even know if I can guarantee I will be living in New England in a year!!! I suppose the last one will have to occur. Last thing I want to do is start all over with someone else half way through this. That would be foolish. However I have no control over employment and my health coverage. I know I can find other work if the inevitable happens. No worries on that front. However who is to say I will have Harvard Pilgrim? And if I don't, will the new insurance cover this!? My guess would be no...it's a pre-existing condition. Although I think I can appeal that really broad brush stroke. Given I have been getting treatment, and I haven't been without coverage since...oh I don't know....the day I was born?? God knows I have a manila folder at the Elliot about an inch and a half thick if they need proof...hahaha

ugh....more time...So that puts me in a holding pattern at the orthodontist until I am all together and such. She won't be happy. I am also driving up to EBF Lebanon, NH to get another opinion at the recommendation of all 3 doctors that looked at me today. Heeeey! Why not right?!? Let's put some more hands in the cookie jar...

I really am going to have the million dollar face when this is all said and done with. No one is ever allowed to touch it again. Gentle....it's been busted way too many times

I can say I am a little less angry and upset now....I am still discouraged, but what can I do right?

Maybe I'll be done with this by my 30th birthday? Maybe?

*sigh*