Wow I never thought, in a million years, that this day would come.....never EVER!!
I got a call today asking if i could come in for the de-bracing tomorrow. Wow tomorrow, really? I was so excited I did a dance in the Service Department's waiting room at Manchester VW. The sales guys caught me and laughed. I don't even care....I don't even care about the state of my potentially totalled car...I don't care about anything else. I have this laser focused on 10:15am tomorrow. 10:15am...and I will finally wake up from the nightmare that was my life the last 1.75 years. Wow....I feel...freedom...elation...and just confusion. What now? I feel like that pet, that has never gotten outside, but has tried a lot, to do it. I finally get out...and now what? Where do I go from here? Well it shall be interesting. I am expecting a lot of people who were not there for me over the last year, to change their tune, and suddenly try and get back in my life again...gah...Super Bitch reporting for duty.
Again I can't thank my friends enough for sticking with me through this. I know I have been super difficult to all of you. I may have even alienated you at one point or another due to my raging emotions, and for that I am deeply sorry. I was looking for sympathy that I honestly could only find within me...Did I ever find that elusive peace? Not really..but I did try exceedingly hard. I hope with this freedom, comes peace from the inner war that I have been waging against myself.
So tomorrow, at 10:15am, it will all be over.
Wish me luck!
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Miss Jody - Tomorrow is truly a big day and I am soo excited for you. To finally break those literal chains and all that they have meant for you over the last -almost 2 years- is cause for huge celebration. Funny enough - it was like you were preparing all along over the last week for this unplanned day..You got a great tan - an awesome new haircut and now this. :) So psyched for you.
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