Unexpected...

So....transformation complete. Exciting right? ? I got my braces off, I got a new hair do...should be exciting and fun times for me?

I don't think I ran this scenario through my head...What I had hoped would be elation and skipping through enormous fields of pretty flowers ended up being confusion and distancing...I never thought the reverse support effect would occur. Now granted I got the initial 'wow' an occasional 'you look great'...etc....but no one ever prepared me for the just simple staring...and the 'you just look so different, I don't even know you anymore'...eek.

Now I've really created a complex. It, I suppose, should be looked at as a catch 22: I got what I wanted- A chance to TOTALLY reinvent myself, just start all over so to speak; but man it's lonely out here. I guess all I can do is take whats been handed to me, and try to make it work. Try and figure it all out somehow. Maybe it's time for a location change too? Or a job change? Why not shake up the whole thing?! I've already shaken up most of it.

This feeling of being in a snow globe has to end soon...Don't those little snow-like particles settle eventually?